Sigh! Let me start by talking about yesterday, Sept 19, 2017. I did what I had a feeling was coming with my full-time job. I resigned. It was a hard decision but considering I had missed the day before because of the anxiety I was getting over going on the phones and then it kicked back in when I got to work. We weren’t even on the phones yet, just starting training for it and it sent my anxiety through the roof.
My supervisor hated that I was leaving. I was one of his top performers in quality and performance. I didn’t mind what I had been doing and would have stayed if it weren’t for those pesky phone calls. Some might be saying “just get over it” but anxiety is not something you can just get over. Sometimes if you’re lucky you can work THROUGH it but that is not always the case.
I came home after resigning and signing the paperwork needed. I was only there for an hour and a half but it felt like a whole day. You can say I was pretty depressed and lacked any motivation to do anything. You would think I would be pumped up to work on creative stuff but I wasn’t. The problem is, I’m still not.
I should have even more motivation to work at creating planners because now I need the money. It seems that the lack of or even incentives just don’t motivate me like it does many people. I know it is because of my mental illness and there is nothing I can do about it except what I am doing. Medication is not the end all be all either.
This whole blog is on motivating and inspiring others but how can I inspire others when I can’t even get my act together and motivate, inspire myself. The only thing I can think of is to start working on a project and see if my momentum builds up. I say that usually works for me but I am just so tired today and I don’t know where to start.
I found this tip on how to increase your motivation on Success Consciousness. This seems like a good place to start.
Tips to Increase Your Motivation:
- Think and analyze your desire, to find out whether you really want to achieve it, and whether it is worth the effort and time.
- Make your goal very clear. Writing it down will help.
- Think often about your goal or desire.
As I was reading their page on motivation I came across this little excerpt and I find it very fitting. I need to remind myself of this on an hourly basis so that maybe it will sink into my thick brain.
Your goal should be clear and sharp, and you need understand and become aware of its benefits. Thinking often of your goal, and accepting the idea that it can come true, would increase your motivation and strengthen your desire to achieve it.
How do you get motivated?
I think I will leave it here. Until next time…